Five Years of a Blessed Commitment

♥ Today marks my FIVE year anniversary, being committed to Al-Anon. ♥

I walked into my first Al-Anon meeting on May 16, 2010 and instantly felt like I was home. I started attending meetings regularly and could feel myself healing from many of my emotional wounds. Then I got pregnant again, and our world slowed to a crawl due a very difficult pregnancy. I still read my literature and tried to practice the principals, but no longer attended meetings on a regular basis, if at all.

On January 3, 2012,  I went to what would become my home group meeting for the next few years. Instantly there was peace in the center of my mental storm. I committed to my program that day, because I wanted to be better for my girls. I wanted them to have a different life, and sense of self, than I had. I wanted to break the cycle of self-loathing and self-destruction. I went for them, but I stayed for me.

It’s been almost 7 years since my first meeting, and 5 years since I committed to this amazing program, and today I can say that I am a different person. I look at the “pre-Al-Anon” me, and cannot even believe that I still have friends from that time, I was so horrible. I thank God every day for the people who loved me enough to stay, even when I could not stand to be around myself. Today, I love myself and I am proud of the progress I have made. I am not perfect, nor would I ever wish to be, because God created me to be human with all my imperfections as tools to build a better me.

Daily I pray only for the willingness and strength to carry out His will, and not force mine. An example of His will versus mine is that yesterday I visited my grandmother, for the first time in over 10 years. I honestly had no intention of seeing her anytime soon, I had given thought to seeing her when I reached Step 9, but God had other plans.  I followed His message and did as He asked. It was a nice visit. We sat down like old friends, talked about current life and reminisced about the old days. Then when we were leaving, we hugged and agreed that we did not want to rehash the ugliness of the past, but start with a clean slate going forward. This visit brought me some peace, and gifted my father and grandmother with much happiness. I am not sure what the future will hold, but I know God has a plan, and my job is to follow the path He lays in front of me.

Thank you Al-Anon for helping me build a loving relationship with my Higher Power, whom I call God. Thank you God for loving me and blessing me with your grace.

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Have a blessed day everyone, and don’t forget to smile. ♥

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Six Years, How Did That Happen?

Today, our eldest child turned SIX. How did that happen? I swear we just brought her home from the hospital yesterday. 🙂

Although, her actual birthday party is not for a few weeks, we did have a very eventful, and wonderful, day. We started the day out just the four of us. Henry made us all Mickey Mouse pancakes, after she opened her presents. Anne had a small gift to open too, because we always do something for the sibling as well.

Then we spent 2.5hours at one of her favorite places, Chuck-E-Cheese. When our time was up, we had 625 tickets. The girls each got a slinky and a silly straw, which left 125 tickets. We were going to add money to that, so she could pick out a bear for her birthday. The young man behind the counter, gave her the bear, wished her a Happy Birthday and refused to take our money. ❤ There are still kind and generous people in the world, and it always fills my heart with a happy, when we encounter them.

Once home, we had lunch, then the grandparents descended upon us. The girls always enjoy having both sets of grandparents here, because there is no waiting for attention. We enjoyed a nice afternoon together, and the girls both received great presents. We sang Happy Birthday, and God’s Blessings, before Beth and Anne blew out all the candles in one try. Beth’s favorite part came next, she got to serve people their cupcakes. She is definitely the hostess with the mostess. 😉

God gave us more than a miracle the day Beth was born, he gave us the embodiment of love and hope.  Beth is is an extraordinary child! She teaches us something new, almost daily. We are grateful that He blessed us with an Autistic child, so that we could embrace the truly important things in life. Our girl is going to change the world; between her brilliant mind, unique perspective and huge heart, there is nothing she cannot achieve.  The energy she sends out into the world is nothing short of pure love and light. We are so proud, and thankful, to have been chosen as her parents; being able to help her navigate her path in life is a tremendous honor. ❤

 

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Image courtesy of JGutke Photography

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Oh my goodness, I don’t know how I could have forgotten one of THE most important parts of the day! Beth just reminded me, as she was telling me how much she loves her bestie, Mr. O. They have been friends for 3years, ever since she started public school when she was 3. He is a fellow Autistic, and an amazing boy. His mother called today, because he wanted to wish Beth a Happy Birthday. When he got on the phone, he sang her Happy Birthday, and it MADE her day!!! ❤ She has declared several times that Mr. O is her prince and that they will be married one day. 🙂

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Have a blessed day everyone, and don’t forget to smile. ♥

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