Five Years of a Blessed Commitment

♥ Today marks my FIVE year anniversary, being committed to Al-Anon. ♥

I walked into my first Al-Anon meeting on May 16, 2010 and instantly felt like I was home. I started attending meetings regularly and could feel myself healing from many of my emotional wounds. Then I got pregnant again, and our world slowed to a crawl due a very difficult pregnancy. I still read my literature and tried to practice the principals, but no longer attended meetings on a regular basis, if at all.

On January 3, 2012,  I went to what would become my home group meeting for the next few years. Instantly there was peace in the center of my mental storm. I committed to my program that day, because I wanted to be better for my girls. I wanted them to have a different life, and sense of self, than I had. I wanted to break the cycle of self-loathing and self-destruction. I went for them, but I stayed for me.

It’s been almost 7 years since my first meeting, and 5 years since I committed to this amazing program, and today I can say that I am a different person. I look at the “pre-Al-Anon” me, and cannot even believe that I still have friends from that time, I was so horrible. I thank God every day for the people who loved me enough to stay, even when I could not stand to be around myself. Today, I love myself and I am proud of the progress I have made. I am not perfect, nor would I ever wish to be, because God created me to be human with all my imperfections as tools to build a better me.

Daily I pray only for the willingness and strength to carry out His will, and not force mine. An example of His will versus mine is that yesterday I visited my grandmother, for the first time in over 10 years. I honestly had no intention of seeing her anytime soon, I had given thought to seeing her when I reached Step 9, but God had other plans.  I followed His message and did as He asked. It was a nice visit. We sat down like old friends, talked about current life and reminisced about the old days. Then when we were leaving, we hugged and agreed that we did not want to rehash the ugliness of the past, but start with a clean slate going forward. This visit brought me some peace, and gifted my father and grandmother with much happiness. I am not sure what the future will hold, but I know God has a plan, and my job is to follow the path He lays in front of me.

Thank you Al-Anon for helping me build a loving relationship with my Higher Power, whom I call God. Thank you God for loving me and blessing me with your grace.

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Have a blessed day everyone, and don’t forget to smile. ♥

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A Prayer For Our Country

Today is a sobering day, and it truly shows the vast diversity in our country. I have friends celebrating, and I have friends grieving. These friends (on both sides) are honest, hardworking people; who love their country. Their elation, or despair, stems from their beliefs on how to achieve the best possible future for the families they love so fiercely.
 
I am fearful for what the future holds, but the fear I have would be present regardless of which candidate won last night. Our country is in dark times, and they will most likely get darker before we find the light, but it is there. Now is not the time to attack loved ones for their beliefs; now is the time to LOVE everyone and be the people God knows we can be. Together we can find, and be, the light our country so desperately needs. Let us walk in FAITH, and not cower in fear.
 
As I said last night….
For those of you who voted… Should your candidate win, I pray the next four years are as wonderful as you hope; should your candidate lose, I pray the next four years are not as horrible as your fear. Regardless of who wins, I pray for our country to show Love, Respect and Kindness for ALL.  ❤

Please choose kindness today, and THINK before speak (or type). This election has set off extremely painful triggers for many people, and today they are hurting. PLEASE project the love and comfort you yourself would appreciate, be a beacon of hope.
Derived from: Siddur Sim Shalom for Shabbat and Festivals (The Rabbinical Assembly & The United Synagogue of Conservative Judaism)

Excerpt from:
Siddur Sim Shalom for Shabbat and Festivals (The Rabbinical Assembly & The United Synagogue of Conservative Judaism)

 

“We’re not Democrats first. We’re not Republicans first. We are Americans first. We’re patriots first. We all want what’s best for this country.” – President Obama

Have a blessed day everyone, and don’t forget to smile. ♥

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