Miss You

Good morning Gram, Happy Birthday, I miss you. ❤

Today my great-grandmother would have turned 103, had she not been called home to Heaven 9.5 years ago. I think of her daily, but especially on her birthday, and the day she went to be with our Heavenly Father, which was October 1, 2005.

I was blessed to have my great-grandmother in my life until I was 28 years old. She was my rock, even when I was too busy to visit her like I should have, just knowing she was there brought a sense of calm to the chaos I lived in.

The last year of her life was not one of quality, and it broke my heart to see her suffer. When her year of suffering came to an end, it was a blessing for which I was extremely grateful. She was a strong woman who deserved to live with dignity, and the last year of her life seemed to rob her of her spirit.

As thankful as I was for her to be free, and no longer suffering; I was not sure how to face a new day without her here. The first year after her passing I was in a fog, and made a complete mess of my life. Through the grace of God, Henry stood by me; and we survived, one of the darker times of my life, together.

Fast forward to March 16, 2011 (the day Anne was born), and Gram was with us once again. From the very beginning Anne has reminded me of Gram, she just has so much of her spirit. She also has a LOT of Gram’s facial expressions and mannerisms. There are times she will say something and stare at me, with my Gram’s eyes, and it takes my breath away. When people comment on her spirit, I just say: “The German is STRONG with this one.” 😉

Sometimes, I feel horribly sad that my girls will never sit and talk with the wonderful woman, who was the matriarch of our family. Then I stop, look with my heart, and I realize she has been with them both all along. I know she whispers in their ears, and I KNOW she watches over them, just like she did me. We may not be able to physically visit with her, but she is Always With Us. ❤

This a picture of my gram’s engagement ring, from 1934. It is one of my most prized possessions, and resides behind my wedding rings. One day one of my girls will wear this ring, and Gram will continue to guide our family into the next generation.

miss you

 

Have a blessed day everyone, and don’t forget to smile. ♥

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